Reaching Out: cont.

 

Here is the rest of the story which I gave you last week. It was written as a short story, but I wonder if it’s worth developing into something longer. What do you think?

As always, I appreciate your comments.

Reaching Out.

Slowly, she moves from the window. He notices the slight limp in her right leg. On the beach, walking on uneven sand, anyone’s feet could falter.  When he had walked into the meeting room last Sunday, she was already seated. He was the first to leave, afraid that if anyone spoke to him the anguish, loss and loneliness would come spewing out.

‘Do you have children, Isabel?’ He tries to keep the conversation general, but how can he get to know her with silly chitchat?

She leans on the table before sitting down and places her mug on the coaster, which he leaves there these days.

Briskly, he gets up, remembering his manners. She does not seem like the sort of woman— those modern, liberated ones—who will object to the chair routine.

‘Thank you, I’m fine,’ she says and sits down.

He notices the twitch at the corners of her mouth. Got that right, he thinks and returns to  his own seat.

They sip in silence for a while. She studies the books on shelves beside them. He pretends to watch the ocean, but can’t help glancing at this new friend, He likes the way she purses her lips in concentration.

‘Do you enjoy reading?’ She looks at him, then points to his wife’s collection.

He’s stumped. She’ll think him a Philistine. All that arty stuff—books, paintings, theatre, music—he left to Jess.

‘Well, yes, but not that kind of thing.’ He nods at the bookshelves. ‘I’m more into news, you know, the papers, television. I do a lot of research on the internet, find out what’s happening in the world.’ He hesitates, wanting to be honest but not reveal too much about himself.

‘My wife—she died, you know—she loved her novels. I’m no good at remembering names, but she could rattle off the latest prize winner or some new author she thought worth a try.’

He blinks away threatening tears. What’s wrong with me? Stop being an ass. This woman doesn’t want to know about Jess.

‘And what about you, Isabel? I guess you have favourite authors too?’

She takes another sip of coffee. ‘Yes, and I see that your wife—your late wife—and I have several in common. I still enjoy Jane Austen and Thomas Hardy. A bit soppy I suppose and certainly not a man’s choice.’

She looks directly at him, her fingers playing with the fabric of her skirt. ‘You asked if I have children. I don’t anymore. My daughter drowned in a neighbour’s pool when she was five years old. I have a son, but I never see him. He’s a drug addict.’ Her lips tremble and she turns away.

He wants to reach out, to give her his manly protection, but that, he’s been told, is not necessarily what the other person wants. He grips his hands together under the table. How can he help? What should he say? Is there anything he can say that might give this lovely woman some comfort?

‘Sorry,’ she says. ‘I try not to talk about it with strangers. Friends know how it upsets me, particularly Jamie. Vanessa was an accident. No-one’s fault, although of course I can’t forgive myself for not being more vigilant.’

She pulls a tissue from the pocket of her skirt and blows her nose. ‘Sorry,’ she says again, ‘perhaps you could tell me about you. Do you have children? Yes, of course you do.’ She stands up and walks to the clump of photos on the shelf above the television. ‘And I guess that’s your wife.’

He turns around and sees where Isabel is pointing. ‘Yes. Jess was killed in a road accident. Bloody truck, pardon my French, ploughed into her. She was on her way home from the ballet. It was a wet night, slippery road. The driver claimed he lost control, couldn’t do anything to avoid her.’

Isabel steps away from the photos and holds out her arms. He stumbles into her embrace, clasps her small, rounded body to his chest and lets the tears flow.

 

 

 

Reaching Out

Here is the first part of another of my award winning short stories, published in May 2020 by Stringybark, in the collection entitled ‘Close to Heaven.’ There was no theme required but the story had to be set in Australia, hence the Akubra and the Arnott’s Monte Carlo biscuits. I enjoyed writing this piece of fiction. I hope you enjoy reading it. Your comments are always very welcome

REACHING OUT

‘Isabel.’ He taps her lightly on the shoulder. ‘I think we should head back now.’

     Beyond the bay, the water of the Southern Ocean is grey, blending with storm clouds that cover the horizon.

     She stands with her arms folded across her stomach. Her frown, when she turns to face him, could mean disapproval, or confusion, or something else which he does not understand.

     ‘Do you mind?’ he asks. ‘I’m just concerned about that cough of yours.’ He pats his chest and pulls his Akubra further down on his head.

     What more can he say without sounding interfering, or worse, like he’s fussing over her? Back when he was in the game last time, forty years ago, men were supposed to be protective of women; to take charge; be the knight in shining armour. He’s been told that modern women hate that.

     ‘What are the rules?’ he’d asked his twenty-four year old son.

     The answer wasn’t encouraging.

     ‘Gees, Dad. What am I supposed to say? It was always you and Mum telling me what to do. Not that I took much notice. Now you’re asking me to tell you, my father, how to pull the chicks. What would Mum think? Not that she can hear of course, but  . . . Dad.’

     He fiddles with the buttons of his jacket and considers putting an arm around her. Is it too soon? Will he frighten her away? He only met her last weekend, in the final session of the retreat. Even then she seemed controlled, or shut off, but everyone was grieving and he didn’t give much away either.

     He decides to risk it. Perhaps she just needs a nudge in the right direction. It’s his idea of the right direction and it might not be hers, but life’s too short to muck around. Look what happened to Jess. Happily married, both retired, ready for the big trip to Europe, then that bloody idiot went through a red light.

     That’s in the past. Now, he’s on this beach with a nice woman. He’ll give it a go.

     ‘Isabel, let me show you something.’ Stepping closer, he puts his arm loosely around the back of her waist.

     She holds firmly to her crossed arms, hesitates, then allows him to lead her away from the water.

     What can he show her that she might find interesting? He’s worried that she’ll think him stupid.

     Seagulls swoop over the ocean and scamper along the beach, screeching their claims for dominance and territory.

     ‘I found a nest up here the other day,’ he says, recalling the tiny woven basket and the grey-feathered parents taking turns to guard their eggs.

     She tilts her head to look at him. He is reminded of a scene from an old romantic movie; the sort he went to in his teens when he was dating Jess.

     ‘Do you want to have a peep?’ Without waiting for a reply, he leads her up the path.

     When they reach the nest, he presses a finger to his lips. She nods her head and waits. He lifts out shattered eggshells and broken twigs and leaves. Isabel takes his hand and holds it between her warm, smooth-skinned palms. Her mouth turns up a little at the corners, but her eyes are unable to participate in the smile she gives him.

     He wants to ask her what happened to make her so sad; why she can’t smile with her eyes. It’s too soon for that.

     ‘Perhaps they just flew away,’ she says.

     Reluctantly, he removes his hand from hers. ‘Will you come and have a coffee with me?’

     Back at his house, Isabel appears far more relaxed than he feels.

     ‘You make good coffee.’ She breathes in the warm aroma. ‘Pretty china, too.’ She takes a sip and holds the mug with both hands. ‘I love your view.’

     Still clasping the mug, she walks to the window. ‘It makes you feel good, doesn’t it, that shimmer on the water?’

     The lump in his throat stifles his reply. That’s what Jess had said when she first saw the place. He goes to the pantry, fumbles with sauce bottles, waiting for the fluttering in his belly to cease.

     ‘Would you like a biscuit?’ He waves a packet at her. ‘They’re only Arnott’s Monte Carlos; my daughter must have left them here.’

     Isabel turns to face him. ‘I’m sure they’ll be lovely, but I’m not hungry. You have some, though.’            

He takes his coffee to the table, puts two biscuits on a plate and sits down, indicating for her to join him. ‘Come and tell me about yourself,’ he says.

To be continued:

COUNTRY LIFE CONT

I hope you enjoyed the story so far. This one is true; it happened in 1965, when I was twenty four. My husband was the surveyor for the Waroona dam. The only accommodation within miles of the place was a farm house that had been left empty for several years.

COUNTRY LIFE CONT:

“It’s only possums.” Robert’s voice was sleepy but not concerned.

“Are you sure?” I whispered, conscious of our baby son sleeping in the corner.

“Yes. Go to sleep, love.” He rolled over and was snoring in minutes.

Thump, thump. Wham. Scuttle, scratch. The noise continued. Bloody army of possums, I thought, trying to switch my mind off, desperately wanting to sleep before Stuart woke for his next feed.

“Darling, can’t you do something about them?” I shook my husband awake. “Stop them making that racket?”

“No. Just go to sleep, love. I’ll sort it out in the morning.”

Sure that I had been asleep for only minutes, I woke to our son’s hungry cries. The first rays of sunlight poured in through the uncovered windows. I slid out of bed and tiptoed across the lounge room floor, nearly stepping on an enormous cockroach, at least ten centimetres long. My screams woke husband and daughter.

Robert killed it with his shoe. “Don’t worry, love. I’ll get some bait today. What time is it?” He walked back into the bedroom as Jane wandered out from her room, rubbing sleepy eyes.

“Where are we, Mummy?”

“This is our new home, darling.  You go back to sleep.  I’m just going to feed Stuart.”

At eight o’clock, with baby asleep and husband gone for the day, I made it a game. “Let’s see how many of the beetles you can find.”

Almost gagging at the stench of each one as I stomped and whacked, I killed forty two cockroaches, following an excited, three year old daughter around the house. Empty cupboards, left untouched for seven months, provided the largest horde. In the bathroom, on the enclosed back verandah, crackly brown creatures scurried into crevices in the walls and floor. Shutting the door on them, I burst into tears and picked up my daughter.

“Clever girl,” I said, burying my wet face in her pink frilly dress.

“More, Mummy.” She wriggled from my grasp and ran back to the kitchen, opening cupboards and peering inside. “All gone.”

The disappointment in her voice made me smile. When she grows up I’ll tell her about this day, I thought. I wonder how she’ll respond then.

That night, having beaten the ceiling with a broom in the hope of chasing away the thundering hordes, we were about to get into bed.

“Are cockroaches carnivorous?” I asked the man who had spent half an hour putting baits in places where our adventurous daughter would hopefully not find them.

“I don’t know, love. Why?”

I looked at the cane basket where our baby lay sleeping: at the four wooden legs that held the frame up off the floor.

“They can climb up the legs.” Tears poured down my cheeks. “They might eat him.”

“Well, let’s put him next to our bed for tonight and tomorrow I’ll fix something.”

In bed he held me, kissed my lips, ran a finger lightly over my nipples. I wanted to respond in the way he wanted me to. My back stiffened. Images of cockroaches everywhere, scurrying, splattered, stinking, attacking my children like a rampaging army.

“I can’t,” I whispered. “Sorry, I can’t.”

He turned over and was soon asleep.

I lay on the other side of the bed, unable to shut out the sight and smell of the disease ridden vermin that inhabited the house.

A week later, with electricity restored, house scrubbed and disinfected, I started to feel that perhaps the six months that we’d committed to—his new job and renting this neglected farm house—might be bearable, despite the lack of phone, transport or any other means of communicating with family and friends.

“The possums seem to have moved out,” I said as the three of us sat around the kitchen table on Sunday morning.

“Really?” Robert continued to concentrate on his bowl of cornflakes.

“Yes. Haven’t you noticed?”

“Um. There’s something I should tell you.” He spoke slowly, hesitantly.

We had dealt with the kitten dying from snake bite and the cattle breaking through the fence around the house, making the journey to the outside dunny hazardous.

“What now?” I asked.

“I think I’ve killed all of them. I’ve been setting traps at night and getting up before you were awake in the morning. I couldn’t put baits out for them because they’d head for the water in the tank and pollute it.”

“But you’re not supposed to kill possums.” Suddenly I felt guilty for causing the death of our native animals, despite the problems they had caused.

“No, they weren’t possums.” He had a worried, guilty look on his face. “I couldn’t tell you because I knew you’d freak out. They were rats.”

COUNTRY LIFE

We arrived after dark, kids asleep on the back seat, dog alert, whining to be allowed out of the car. Country smells had him quivering with excitement, so Robert let him out first. I hoped he wouldn’t explore too far on our first night in a strange place.

“Can you put the lights on high beam, love?” My husband’s voice echoed in the vast space around us as he turned back to the meter box.

Obediently, I leant across and adjusted the headlights. Robert stood out against dark brown, weatherboard walls that could do with a coat of paint. The green, cabled jumper that I had knitted for him in our student days, still hung loosely on his trim frame and his corduroy trousers from the same period, looked suitably warm for the frosty night air.

Yes, I am following you anywhere, I thought. Let’s hope this new venture will give us enough money to go back home and pay the mortgage.

“The power’s not connected,” Robert said, walking towards me. “We’ll have to unload in the light from the car. There’s a kerosene lamp in one of the boxes inside.”

He opened the passenger door and reached into the glove box. “Here’s a torch. Go and see if you can find the lamp.”

Coming to this lonely farm house was bad enough. How did he think we could unload the children, make up beds and find everything in the dark? I got out of the car and walked across crunchy grass. The front door was unlocked. A pity he didn’t check the electricity this afternoon when they delivered our stuff, I thought, stepping inside.

Waving the torch around, I noted a brick fireplace, pale brown stains on the ceiling, walls painted yellowish green, jarrah floor boards, no curtains on the window. Plonked in the middle of the living room were the boxes that we had packed several days earlier.

“It has to be in one that he packed,” I muttered, pushing aside my efficiently labelled handiwork.

Robert came in, carrying two cases. “Jane’s awake,” he announced and continued walking through a doorway off the living room. “Have you found the lamp yet?”

My breath came out in a noisy rush as I ripped a box open. Towels, books, the dog’s lead and his water bowl got thrown on the floor.

“Do you remember where you put it?” I was almost in tears as I continued pulling things out of the box.

“It’s okay, love. I’ll find it.” He gave me a quick hug. “You bring the kids in. Jane’s bed’s in that room. Stuart will be in with us.” He pointed to the room where he had just put the cases.

It was one in the morning when we fell into bed. Almost immediately, it started; thump, thump in the ceiling. Eyes staring into the dark, heart thumping as loudly as the intruders, I was wide awake and ready to defend my babies.

To be continued: